Ready or Not.. here he comes!

Here it is.. probably my last post before giving much painful and scary birth to my son. Today I am 38 weeks. I am measuring big.. which unfortunately doesn't mean this little man is coming early. It means: this boy is probably huge. I'm kind of freaking out with him being big. OUCH. That's all I can think. I'm scared of labor and of my water breaking and of the epidural needle and of everything else that I am about to go through. Sometimes I wanna take it back. No can do. This kid is coming. Me.. scared or not scared.. he's coming. 
On the other hand: I'm excited to be a mom.. to hold this little guy and to raise him. I am really excited to get him out of me.. whoever says that they love being pregnant and having their child move inside of them.. FULL OF CRAP. It's the most uncomfortable and painful thing. Heartburn sucks, whenever he goes to my left side.. want to punch someone, kicks my ribs.. not favorite. SO yes: him coming out.. will be the best thing ever. 
I won't have the excuse of eating whatever I want anymore though. It's been nice to eat ice cream or cake or large amounts of candy without any judgment from others. PS.. no one tells you that you basically get all of the first trimester symptoms again in the end. Nausea is back some,. and the smells are a little intense.. and other things that suck.
I promise I'm not an angry person. I really think my pregnancy has been pretty easy. I have been blessed. I do enjoy being able to continue to help at the Shop and keep busy. And sometimes it is fun to watch my stomach move like there is an alien in there.
On another note: my dad got neck surgery on the 19th. The anesthesiologist scared the crap out of me though.. before he went in for surgery.. he kept saying things like: now you know you could die on the table and all of these other high risk things.. and then immediately follows with: OK.. hugs and kisses and goodbyes. Dave and myself kind of cried a lot for a minute.. but with all of the blessings he has gotten and with everything that has happened.. we knew he wasn't done here yet. The surgery went great.. and the Dr was very impressed with how well he was recovering. Unfortunately, he got a urinary tract infection and some other things happened while in recovery.. but they say that wasn't unusual, They moved him over to the rehab center.. and he was having hallucinations. Dave was standing in front of him.. and he started reaching for Dave's crotch.. he thought Dave was standing in a bunch of fluff. it was pretty funny.. but that was all thanks to the drugs he's been on him being super tired. So tomorrow we will find out how long he will be in rehab. He will have a neck brace on for about 3 months. poor guy. Hes tough though.. sometimes a little too tough.. he doesn't like to ask for help or anything.. sometimes tries to do things by himself. I think I'm like him though.. don't really like to inconvenience people.. even when it doesn't really inconvenience them. Anyways, he is recovering well.
All in all: baby is coming, dad is alive and well, and I'm scared to death to give birth. WISH ME LUCK!!

OH baby.. OH baby.

Well, I've been called out on my lack of blog writing by my friend Valerie. I've been meaning to write for a while now.. but I am just so lazy. Really, I've been crazy busy lately and it seems as if I sometimes don't even have time for myself or Dan. Poor Dan. Anyway, thanks to Valerie's nagging (which wasn't really nagging) I decided to write again.

So, I'm still pregnant. I feel GINORMOUS. It's probably the least appealing feeling in the world. I'm excited to get this little guy out! Oh yah.. I guess it has been that long.. The baby is a Boy. His name is Samuel Dodge. NOT THE VEHICLE BRAND! My great great grandpa's name was Israel Dodge.

I've been working on a quilt for the baby with my mom (because I have no idea when it comes to quilting stuff). It's been enjoyable. I can tell it'll be a good thing for her to do as well while my dad will be in recovery. Long story short: he has to get open heart surgery sometime soon.. he was already supposed to have it.. unfortunately, I think he's been too darn stubborn and has taken a little too much Ibuprofin or probably stressing way too much about the surgery, that he has a HUGE ulcer in his stomach. Poor guy. His legs aren't working and it seems as if this guy who has the mindset of a 29 year old is stuck in a 90 year old man's body. He's using a walker and they are hooking up an attachment to the back of the jeep in the near future for the Jazzy! All the grandkids love that thing.. especially little Griffballs (Griffin.. Dave's son). Anyway, we are hoping to get that taken care of soon.. so that he can get better and start feeling the way he should. He'll have to get back surgery after the heart surgery to hopefully help his walking. We shall see and pray for the best.

Anyway, QUILT.. it's going to be so adorable. I've decided to do this little guy's room with trucks and cars. His dad approved that idea.. OBVIOUSLY. That's all Dan ever talks about or wants to tinker with. This little boy will definitely be a real boy. Even though my sister has threatened to have her daughter play barbies and ponies with him. BULL HONKY. She's going to be playing trucks and cars. ANYWAYS!! The colors are Orange, Aqua blue, and Grey. I've gotten the cutest fabric for it.. and it's just going to be a block quilt type one. I'm excited for it. 

Good news is that the morning sickness is gone! BUT: heartburn galore has arrived.. and the whole feeling like the fattest whale on the planet.. and now I just get to keep getting bigger. Hopefully the whole breastfeeding and eating normal foods (I guess exercise.. BLAH) will help get me back into chip chop shape. A few other things still happen and are annoying.. teeth brushing, smells of some sorts, peeing when you sneeze.. and having to pee every 5 minutes!! you know.. the works.

I Biffed it the other day walking up the cement stairs to our apartment.. my legs are pretty messed up from it.. and I landed on my stomach too! That part was SCARY. I couldn't feel the little guy move for a while after.. which had both me and Dan in tears. (he might deny that) I also dropped Dan's drink and most of it spilled out all over the ground and me.. (which could be why Dan was teary eyed) but the little guy Finally started going crazy as he always does. I still felt as though I should call the Dr.. so, I called and it turns out that if he was still moving and there was no bleeding or anything.. I was safe. Thank heavens. 

That's all I have for now. I will work on my blog writing.

Secret Secret.. we've got a Secret!

So a lot has happened in the last little while. I won't go over everything right now.. But recently we've discovered some things about me. Let me name some of them off:

1. I couldn't handle my bathroom that is connected to our room anymore. (all my clothes and shoes took up the whole closet. Dan had to use the guest room as his closet. He also just made the guest bath his own.) We have switched! I have now moved my things into both bedroom and bathroom. I don't step foot into Dan's new bathroom which was my old one.

2. I absolutely can't handle mint. I have switched to kids watermelon flavored toothpaste. (thanks for the introduction Laura.. well Laura's kids) Fruity gum has always been flavor of choice.. so that's no discovery.

3. I hate the thought or smell of meat. I have gone fully veggies, cheese and noodles. 

4. I DON'T throw up.. unfortunately I've thrown up more this last month than I have in my entire life. (well as far as I can remember) And I do not recommend throwing up in the shower. Worst experience of my life!

5. I have issues with the smell of certain things.. like certain soaps, perfume, mint, meat, fast food, anything good.

6. My couch and tv have become my best friends.

7. Sugar makes my saliva sweet. It makes me gag.

8. I really love chewing on ice.

9. I LOVE having the windows open in the house and in the car. MMMMM fresh air!

10. OH last one. There's a tiny little person growing inside of my body.

YIPPEE!! After trying for 18 months and getting tested and all that kind of junk.. we have FINALLY succeeded in getting pregnant. 

Let me explain some discoveries: 

1. I couldn't handle the smell of my bathroom. It was an instant vomit trigger every time I went in there. I thought it was the smell of toilet water.. but then realized after we switched, it was the air freshener that was in there. We went to a gas station last weekend in Lehi and I had to pee!! So I go in and it was the most difficult experience of my life.. they had the same air freshener in there and I start dry heaving.. I had already started my business.. so I had to go as fast as I could.. IT SUCKED. 

3. I'm not a vegetarian. This is only Temporary. I am usually a meat-a-holic. That sounds gross. I'm gonna stop talking about meat. My stomach and eyes.. and I guess nose just can't handle it right now.

7. I love sugar.. but it seems like every time I have something sweet, there is a film in my throat and when I have to swallow.. it's the worst. 

I think everything else is a DUH. 

I went into the Dr. today for my check up.. my mom had to come with me because Dan had to work.. but we got to hear the heartbeat! It took her a while to find it.. which made me super nervous.. (but I had just said to my mom minutes before, "what if there's no heartbeat?") but she finally found it.. it was loud, fast, and strong. what a RELIEF! They didn't do an ultrasound though.. that made me sad.. but the heartbeat was still awesome. There is a video.. but unfortunately it shows more of me than I would like anyone to see. Only me, Dan, my mom and the doc get to hear it.

If all of you reading this already knew I was pregnant.. I'm not surprised. My mother likes to talk!  We had to tell my family right away because I have been super sick and unable to work for a while.. and we had to tell Dan's family of course! I've had people text me randomly saying.. "I heard something about you!" or "your mom told me to ask you what's going on in your life." I love my mother and her ability to keep a secret! :) I really don't mind that people were told though. 

But I will tell you what.. being pregnant is probably my least favorite thing in the world. Maybe its just all the nausea.. which I absolutely HATE. I hope once the 2nd trimester starts my attitude about all of this will change. I am SO excited to be a mom and have a baby.. but being pregnant SUCKS. I know it'll all be worth it though. 

I am currently 11 1/2 weeks. The next trimester is SO close! If you do the fruit thing.. it's the size of a lime. 

Baby Morris is due October 13th. 

Stay tuned for updates and gender in the future. We've got a while before that is known. I wish I knew now so I could start getting stuff!! Oh well. 

Anyway.. Welcome to the Morris life.